Accept and live your emotions

Time does not exist and last night and this morning I have celebrated Easter, I managed to have a moment of silence and recollection.

I have seen 2 episodes of the Chosen series and I could only think of the founder, La Jardinera, who reads hearts and feels for us all equally.

I FOLLOW YOU

When LJ spoke to me I always said that I understood, but I didn’t.

I have always sought to run away from emotions and feelings, to have a medicine that would cure emotions rather than have to work through them. Because feeling reveals truths about ourselves. Running away prevents us from reaching the bottom and behind the dark clouds, the storms, the shit, and the gaps, there is only the Light.

I have listened to the latest messages from La Jardinera on instagramand I am so grateful, from the bottom of my heart but I went straight for the medicine and did not let the messages do their work, because it hurts to see yourself in the middle of the mundane when the Truth has always been there, since I met her.

LJ speaks to us in 2 ways, one to our physical self and to our wounded hearts but the other way is in recognition of the Soul, consciousness and Faith. She does not speak to the ears, she speaks to the Light that is within us.

Sometimes I say: Jardinera you give us too much, I only know that I follow you, I want to resume and follow a path, the one you teach us, the one of the Lord.

Today I won’t take the medicine, I won’t run from emotions, today I have an internal revolution, a necessary one.

I also think about how La Jardinera says: you are what you eat.

Today I understand it differently because you don't just talk about the food eaten. Scrap is also what we think, what we do not forgive, the past that we do not abandon, ignorance, rejection, judgement, envy, jealousy. Nobody is perfect, we are only very small atoms and children of God, but every time pride is present, we deny it.

I did not understand the words: Yours is the Way and I hope that what I feel helps me to understand and live it.

There was a course that I could not attend and I felt terrible, because each course is an opportunity. I am living this moment with great intensity, to understand the meaning. I can only be grateful even though I feel like my cells are exploding, I'm happy with everything that's being removed.

I don't know what will happen next, now I just ask to be awake, alert.